Sometimes life throws you curveballs and sometimes life throws you a fastball right at your head. How do you react to something you can barely see? And how do you cope when it hits you right between the eyes? Sometimes you have to really ask why things happen the way that they do. Why God gives so much and then, unexplicably, takes something away. For those of you that know me, there is nothing more that I cherish more than my family. I am blessed with a great, loving mother and father, a generous and brilliant step-father, a resilliant and loyal sister, a faithful and example setting brother and sister in law, and the most beautiful neice and nephews, in Collin and Kaitlyn, that anyone can ask for. They are the pride and joy of the Stansbury/Ely family. At least they are in my eyes. Today...was a bad day.
On Thanksgiving, during a prayer of thanks, we were all shocked and elated to find out that my brother and his wife were expecting thier third child. My brother said, "Lord thank you for the child that you have growing in my wife's womb." Just a few months later, that child is gone. They lost thier baby today. As a matter of fact, I just found out about it 30 minutes ago. I don't know why, but I felt I need to write it down or get it out. I don't know why. At this moment...noone even knows about this blog but me, more of a diary I guess. (of course..if you are reading it now...that is not the case.)
My grandmother, had three miscarriages before my father was born. Guess I am glad she didn't give up. Guess if she didn't have those...my dad may have never been born...we all know what that means. A few years ago, two very close friends of mine lost a child during thier pregnancy. Its hard to find a silver lining anytime that happens. They have tremendous faith, and today they are pregnant again. They have an amazing little girl that will light up a room, just as Collin and Kaitlyn do. Why would that be denied to anyone? I guess there is no real answers to those questions. But I do know that see thier faces on a regular basis, reminds me why I am Pro-Life. I am not going to waste my breath getting all political on you. It just sickens me that someone would do it on purpose...for selfish reasons...all medical catastrophes a side.
Today is a day, if you have the guts, to get on your knees and thank God for what you have. I say "guts" because it is easy to say "why" or blame God for unfortunate things like these. Its easy to ask something of God when you need something. But when things go bad...it takes guts to pray and thank Him for all the good. Thank Him for Collin and Kaitlyn or just the things that are important in YOUR life. Then go and cherish every second you have with them.
This isn't some blog so that people will feel bad for me or my family...its a message for people to start feeling good about what you have. If you get it...great. If you don't...then try harder. Some people wonder how other peoples lives would be affected if they weren't around. You know...everyone has done it. You lie in bed and picture what you think it would be like if you died. How would it affect other people's life. Well, I wonder how my life would have been affected if this little gift was given to all of us. She could've been another Kaitlyn...he could've been another Collin. That would have been awesome. Wasn't meant to be I guess.
Pray for my brother and sister in law.
Then thank God for what you have.
He's listening.
H
Thursday, January 3, 2008
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