Pretty Damn Thankful

The holiday season is such a cool time of year. It is so much fun to be able to hang out with your family and friends with that kind of euphoric feeling. However, as much as it lets your enjoy the present, it really does make you reflect on the past. This is the first year in recent memory that I have been single during this season and it is truly different. This time of year is definitely better to be spent with someone that you care a lot about. It kind of gives it a whole new meaning. I have been blessed for the past 4 or 5 years to have someone in my life that I have cared alot about during this time. I don't mean to be "sappy" but drinking will do that to you sometimes. It does seem that no matter what you do, certain things happens that reminds you of the past, even though you are doing everything to forget it.
There are a lot of cool things happening this year, a lot of firsts and lasts. This will be John and Brandy's last holiday season with separate last names. It will be Jones Lotterhos' first Christmas, and Darrin and Michelle's last before they are buying presents for a baby. Not to mention, there will be another nephew coming next year that I can only hope is half the kid Collin is. Its fun to watch, and I am blessed to see it all happen. A bunch of friends having kids, getting married, and family members taking the next step in their lives. My step brother is off to the Marines to find himself and I know he will. My sister has been through a lot, and I kind of finally feel like I have her back in my life the way she was years ago. My dad is dealing with adversity and knowing that he will come out better on the other end is a great feeling. This is could be my grandfathers last Christmas, which is tough to swallow, but it does put into perspective of what is really important. I have always kind of been a guy that has worn his heart on his sleeve...maybe a little cheesy...maybe a little over the top...but at least I know it...and frankly, I could care less. Although I may delete this post when I sober up in the morning. Its so much fun to watch my Mom, Step dad, Dad, along with my brother and sister in law and step brother and sister in law, just be in awe of the all the grand kids and what not...It really is fun to watch how God can put people in your life that are there for the sole purpose of giving joy. I really see every single member of my family and friends as that very thing. When I feel down about not having the things that others have, I am reminded by that. Now I know that some people may read this and think that it is overly cheesy and they are probably right, but it doesn't really matter. If I ever thought about questioning my faith, or feeling down about something I used to have, I am always reminded about the power of faith and hope that God gives. I do not usually outwardly speak about God...but if you look at the people he has surrounded me with, there is no denying what he can do. I am so thankful for everyone in my life, and how they make me who I am. I couldn't ask for a better family nor could I ask for better friends...I am thankful that I am so lucky...OK...I am done being cheesy...Happy Thanksgiving.